COMING SOON:

From about my sophomore year in high school to now,I've been doodling a surreal comic in a crumpled up notebook that I just shared with my friends every once in a while, and continue working at today. A few friends of mine wanted me to send it to them or post it on facebook or something, but I never got around to it. After a while it just sort of became the backlog of this site, just to post when I don't have anything else or am too busy. So tomorrow I'll post the entire thing with translations and commentary and such.

I've decided I'm probably just going to archive Lorem Ipsum, put bits and pieces up here if I ever feel around to it. It's up to 50 some pages right now in its unedited form, and looking over it, I'm pretty sure I don't want anyone to read it until I can sew a narrative thread, add fictional elements, change names and so on, or just until I'm dead. There's stuff in it I'm really, really done with and don't deserve a single second more of my time or thoughts. But it represents an important portion of my life where I grew up so much, and I don't want to lose that, so I held onto it and processed it and learned from it by thinking deeply and writing about it all.

Most of the people in it that I write about, probably 1/2 of the 10 or so characters are truly horrible human beings that don't deserve to be recognized in any fashion, let alone analyzed in the way that I did in this project...it makes me feel bad that I'm almost doing them a service, giving them attention, letting them know they got to me, let them know that they had an impact at all, no matter how negative; that is way more than they deserve from anyone and it fills me with conflict about the whole situation. It never stopped me from actually writing, and I'm never going to stop writing about people who have an impact on me, but now that I'm thinking of publication and letting an aspect of my life that has always been intensely personal be sent out into the world and possibly get a certain degree of attention, it makes me think of everything from a new perspective. I'll probably write about it more at some point, but as of now that's where I'm leaning.

Tune in tomorrow for the thing I talked about before that I'll give a title to when I feel like it/get around to it!

Lorem Ipsum and Stuff

Some stuff has happened that made Lorem Ipsum a lot closer to being done. I don't know what I'm going to do with it. It's incredibly personal and there's themes of irrationality, hatred, pain, rage, manipulation of the truth, selfishness, emotional and mental abuse, and being a witness and subject of all of the above. All of that's been a large part of my life for the past year, and learning from all of it and growing up while keeping the product as far from 'suburban coming of age angst' as possible has been a large part of the experience of writing Lorem Ipsum. I don't know if I'd want it published or have it be that thing I have on the backlog that maybe some people would be interested in reading if they've read my other stuff. There are some people I would like to read it, just because, and hear what they have to say about it. I think I'll just have it archived. I'll post something about it when I'm done, done.

Near futurewise, I have a thing I wrote about my love for pulp books, and I still have drawings and stuff I'll post at some point. I'll get around to all of that soon.

Lorem Ipsum

Yeah, I'm not one for following shit to the t, but I am going to be posting something on here at least once a week. I write a lot more than just once a week or so, but some stuff, believe it or not, is not quality enough for being posted here. I'm writing a quick thing right now that is essentially a lot easier of a project to work on constantly than Ram's Head, which I still am writing like crazy for anyway. It just makes me feel good to have a polished chapter that I'm proud of that doesn't make me feel as crazy and anxious as Ram's Head, mostly because of the subject matter.

Last night I got a rough of the first chapter, it's called Lorem Ipsum, and said first chapter will be up here momentarily. It's pretty much fictionalized me journaling, sort of like the Bob Evans thing, only less straight forward puking, more polished and less angst. I'm actually thinking about fucking around with the Bob Evans thing, plopping side characters into it and cleaning it up to make it fit in, just because I love the whole situation so much. It's probably a desk drawer piece, but it'll be about me and this weird place I'm in right now with my whole world shifting. My grandparents, parents and myself adjusting to entering a new stage of life respectively, and me being in summer doing essentially nothing and having no responsibilities before I enter this stage and observing it all like squinting into the lights of an oncoming train.

I have a thing on Ram's Head too that I'm going to put here, some excerpts I'm working on, and also in between bigger stuff I'm thinking of posting side stuff, like some shit I did during school, everything from little comics I did and essays and stuff. Thanks to everyone for reading, I'll be getting to all of that soon.